Monthly Archives: May 2017

Summer Reads

I was going to take a “beginning the adventure selfie” but all my attempts have failed and I feel extremely Basic White Girl so instead please enjoy this snapshot of the books I packed for the summer!

I tried to pick things I could really chew on and re-read since I will have limited/no access to books. I am looking forward to these!


What am I getting myself into?

There are two words that have never been used to describe me: athletic or outdoorsy. This is so patently obvious to those who know me that I can’t think of a way to stress how ridiculous my traipsing off to Idaho must seem. It is crazy. I’m the girl who has never worn sports shorts in her life, now I own enough to get me through a week easily. I’ve stocked up on sports bras and flannel and even considered buying chacos. I’m going to spend a summer without books or K Dramas or Facebook messenger. It is insanity! 

And yet…I’m excited. This is so not me that it is going to be a crazy, new adventure. I’m going to face my fears, be separated from my comforts, and hopefully grow in my walk with God. I’m going to learn new skills. For three months, I get to step away from everything and try something different. 

At the risk of sounding cliche, I’m also excited to find a new side of myself. I’ve been defined by my job for so long that I looking forward to discovering who else I can be. Who is Amy when you stick her 45 minutes from civilization and throw a cabin full of kids at her? My hope is that she will be someone who learns to live more fully in the present. 

Am I slightly terrified beginning this new adventure? Definitely. But I am also super excited. It isn’t quite backpacking across the Himalayas, but camp in Idaho for the summer is going to be a really fun, challenging experience. 


The Downside of Leaving

One of the downsides of moving to the middle of nowhere Idaho to work at camp is that I will have limited access to the internet. My blogging streak which has now lasted almost a year and two months will come to an end after Wednesday.  The upside of this is that when I do have internet, I’ll be uploading amazing pictures of mountains and nature. Stay tuned for that! The downside is, well, no more daily posts from me. 

This really is the end of a season. I’ve grown attached to these daily posts. It has kept me consistent in a way journaling never could. Thank you, readers, for being part of my life. I hope you’ll stick around for the next adventure! 

(And don’t worry, you’ll still have me on the weekends.)

P.S. The other downside to camp is that I won’t have time and/or access to books like I do now so I probably won’t make my goal of 170 this year. *sob*


I feel naked with only one phone…

For the first time in a very long time, I no longer have two phones, two laptops, two credit cards, and a constant feeling that I’m ignoring something I should be doing for work. It is a strangely empty feeling. It isn’t like having a phantom limb as much as feeling like there is a large, empty space somewhere inside me where tension used to be. My responsibility is now gone. 

I know this is a temporary feeling and I’ll be back to work in three days, but it still surprises me. Of all the emotions I imagined, “emptiness” was not one of them. I think I might get sick. I’ve been fighting a sore throat this morning. The tension and emotions of the past few weeks have finally knocked me down and now I just want to sleep and avoid people. However, I can’t do that because there are only 3 days till I leave for the summer and people want to see me. I didn’t plan this very well! 

Oh well, enough of my whining. I’m going to take advantage of introvert time while I can and hopefully it will be enough to get me through the next few days!


Farewell, but not goodbye…

Today was my last day of work at Americans For Prosperity. After several months of agonizing, I have finally decided to start a new adventure. I’ll be headed to Idaho for the summer to be a camp counselor and hopefully will follow that with law school in the fall. The past few months have been full of ups and downs as I’ve applied and waited…and waited…and waited…

Still waiting on those law schools, actually. However, I decided to take the leap and here I am! I leave for camp this coming Wednesday.

This has been a pretty emotional week for me. I am incredibly grateful for the last three years with AFP. I have gotten a chance to do what I love, work with amazing people, and truly make a difference here in Wisconsin. AFP has given me many, incredible opportunities, but the best one has always been the chance to wake up in the morning and say, “I can’t believe I’m getting PAID to do this!”

This is farewell to an amazing organization, but not goodbye. Though I am leaving, AFP will always be a part of who I am and what I do in the future. I’m confident in my decision yet this parting is incredibly bittersweet. 

My bosses gave me some lovely flowers!

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10:20pm

It is 10:20 and I have just got home from work. Today was long. Yesterday was long. Tomorrow will be long.

Tomorrow, however, I will post something longer and more serious, so be on the lookout for that (and excuse this short, meaninglessness post) 

Until then, enjoy this picture of my lunch!


A movie worth seeing once…

Since January 1st, I have been to the movies 9 times (a high number for me!) but have only seen 5 movies. I end up watching them twice! I saw Sing, Moana, Beauty and the Beast, and now Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 2 twice in theaters. The one exception is the Lego Batman Movie, which surprises me because I was most looking forward to that one. (I just Googled it and there is a showing of Lego Batman at a theater in Oak Creek…if I hustle, I could make it…just kidding, not that committed.)  

Prior to this year, I don’t think I have ever seen a movie twice in theaters. It just doesn’t logically make sense to pay that much to see the same movie. Yet I have done it 4 times this year! Why?! Have the movies been that much better? I don’t think so. It is more that I have a lot of friends I like seeing movies with…so I go, again and again. 

Though I know it doesn’t make sense financially, I like seeing movies in theaters more than once. The second time around I get to remember my previous thoughts and emotions as well as experience new ones as I pay attention to other details. Perhaps what I am really enjoying is just seeing the movie twice in a short span of time. I wonder if I would enjoy the experience as much with a regular DVD?

I conclude from this: a movie worth seeing once is worth seeing twice!


A Controversial Poem

One of the poems contained in Enough Rope is titled “Résumé” and it is a lot more controversial than I would have guessed. I first read this poem in 2014 and it struck me as something…horrifying but powerful. Here it goes:

“Résumé”

Razors pain you;
Rivers are damp;
Acids stain you;
And drugs cause cramp.
Guns aren’t lawful;
Nooses give;
Gas smells awful;
You might as well live.

To give context, Parker was often depressed and attempted suicide. Her poetry is full of angst, cynicism, and a longing for death. I feel like a poem like this reflects her worldview. There is no hope; this is life. Besides, isn’t there theory that one of the stages of tragedy is humor? In her mocking way, she’s wrestling with the tragedy of her own life. This isn’t designed to be serious, yet it is serious. That is why I find it haunting. 

However, one reviewer on Goodreads calls it, “callous and nursery-rhymish, and too shallow for the profound subject.” He goes on to call its conclusion, “a shopping list of smug quips.”

I’ve been chewing over his words but I find I can’t agree. It is powerful and depressing precisely because it is so trite. It is the title that takes this silly list and makes it powerful. It is “Résumé” because she knows these things only too well. 

What are your thoughts? Is this poem insensitive or powerful?  Haunting or humorless? 


Two New Books

Shhhh, don’t tell my sisters, but I bought two new books today! The first is The Creators: A History of Heroes of the Imagination by Daniel J. Boorstin. It is 811 pages and I’ve never heard of it before. However, I found it at the bookstore and became intrigued. It was written in 1992 and reviews are few and far between on Goodreads. Who knows? Perhaps I have found a treasure, perhaps a flop. 

The second book I got is Enough Rope by Dorothy Parker. This book contains poems written in 1926 (re-published in 1940) and is only 110 pages long. Dorothy Parker is a biting, brilliant, and fun author to read. The subtitle on this book is, “A brilliant collection of witty verses guaranteed to dispel gloom. By the author of SUNSET GUN and DEATH AND TAXES.”

I don’t know about you, but simply seeing the title of Death and Taxes makes me want to find it. At any rate, Dorothy Parker doesn’t disappoint. 


Coolest Sign Ever!

Look what my volunteers gave me! It is homemade, too!