5 e-mails. They stare at me, filling me with an unnamed dread. Unnamed and unnecessary, really, because they are just e-mails. But they are e-mails I have been ignoring and so I feel guilty about ignoring them.
But not guilty enough to want to actually answer. And what are these anxiety-inducing e-mails about?
Nothing of importance. Fall plans. Follow-up questions. Speaker-arrangements. The details of life. But answering them means I am back, back, back. My lovely summer is over. Time to be responsible again.
I whined enough about turning into a student again. Why do I turn around and whine about going back to adult things? I feel like this dichotomy of Student and Adult creates most of the conflict in my life and 95% is all in my head.
- Complete daily Korean lesson (check)
- Preserve Snapchat streaks (check)
- Write a blog post (in the works)
1 3 books (1/3 complete)
My original plan was just 1 book a day for the month of August, but then I thought, why read 1 book a day when I could achieve my August goal by reading 3 books a day until August 15th? I will probably drop the whole 3 books things as it is seriously cutting into my productivity but it pleases me to realize I can do it. (And for that reason I’m leaving it on the to-do list.)
“It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Or if I could reword, “It is one of the blessings of old friends that they have seen at you at your stupidest and still associate with you.”
I was reminded of that last night at the Gen J gala. 8 years ago I attended as a camper. 4 years ago I was a counselor. Now I am a community member coming to help out.
Last night was a blast. I don’t have any pictures, but here is a snapshot of me 8 years ago with my pals. They saw me at my stupidest and still associate with me ❤ At least most of the time.
I know a girl/Whose full of grace/she’s got red hair/and a happy face
Her name is Anna/she loves bananas/someday we know/she’ll be in a drama!
She’s our lima bean/but as you can see/she is Anna Keen! Dunt dunt duh!
Y’all, I officially have the coolest 21-year-old sister on the planet. I can’t imagine life without her.
Anna, I hope you have a spectacular day and a wonderful year. Let’s drink responsibility when I get home!
Today marks my last Monday at Young Life. I will miss it here. I plan to write out a more thorough post at a later time. For now, I just feel a sense of sadness that my summer is coming to a close. It has been a lovely summer full of fun and fulfillment. Mondays don’t feel like Mondays. I’m always eager to get back to work.
But I guess all good things come to an end. After all, new blessings cannot enter your life if you cling to the old.
I’m so grateful for this summer!
‘That looks like Joel,’ I think as I stand in the church lobby and observe the other attendees. ‘But he lives in Virginia.’
Joel Grewe is the director of Generation Joshua and a mentor of my high school and college years.
For a moment I marveled at the resemblance before realizing that Generation Joshua’s iGovern West camp started this week. It could be him.
“Joel?” I ask.
Considering the odd surroundings, he takes my presence in stride for a few moments before the oddity strikes him. He motions to where the other iGovern counselors are gathered, ready for lunch. I’m ecstatic. These are my old friends. I practically run across the sanctuary to say hi.
Then I remember what I’m wearing. I chose sleep over makeup this morning; my jeans have a huge hole and my top is a castoff from my sister – a bedazzled Star Wars t-shirt I only wore because I haven’t done laundry. To match my odd shirt, I paired my choker necklace and I have a decided goth-wannabe feel. Or I would if I bothered with makeup. I wish I had; I’m so broken out today.
I feel very self-conscious. But also excited. Everyone is confused to see me. It is so good to see them, even briefly. These are my people. They invite me to the camp gala on Tuesday night. I don’t have a ride but I will find one. I’m more excited about the gala than I was to go to the Supreme Court last weekend.
My ecstatic mood lasts through brunch with the other Young Life interns. I’m bubbly and bouncy in a way they haven’t seen before. I’ve mellowed a lot…but there is nothing like Generation Joshua to bring out all my enthusiasm!
Exactly half a year ago, I was sitting between classes trying to find a Thai language app. I figured it was good to get a jump on it what with my new found interest in Thailand.
Unfortunately, I did not find one. I did notice that Duolingo finally had Korean, though. So I started there.
Today marks 180 days of doing Korean for ten minutes a day! I don’t actually know if I am learning anything, but it is fun.