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Forgotten Extrovert

I forget I am an extrovert. 

No, really. There is a difference between being outgoing and being an extrovert. I easily convince myself I am the former. But the latter? After a summer spent commuting 3 hours, an isolating semester in Thailand, and the insane burnout that was the start of my 2L year, I forget that people fill me up. And anyway, I’d just as soon curl up with a book. (234 of them since January, to be precise.)

But I spent the last two nights socializing past my usual 9 pm bedtime and let me tell you…I feel energized. Alert. Awake. Enthusiastic. 

It is an odd feeling. I’d…forgotten. Forgotten what it feels like to not feel constantly exhausted. Forgotten how to be with people without mentally rehearsing everything I need to do next. 

Maybe even forgotten how fun it is to live with someone. It is nice having a roommate. Even one I leave home alone 14+ hours a day. 

Remembering I’m an Extrovet

Yesterday, my Mom kindly consented to join me at an AFP event and we headed into Milwaukee. I almost didn’t go. But I RSVPed and felt somewhat obliged to attend and there would be food.

I walked through the doors at the event, looked around the room, and saw people I knew. Moreover, people I liked. Former co-workers, bosses, and mentors. People I spent years fighting alongside. People I only know from Facebook. People I met once years ago. People I wanted to know. The AFP, grassroots world. In the flesh. 

I guess I just didn’t realize how much I missed that world. 

It was like a light flickered on in my head. ‘I know this situation. I am trained for this situation. I can go work the room. I can catch up on all the changes. Network.’

I often feel displaced in law school, to say nothing of the five months I spent in Thailand. But this was the opposite feeling of displacement. It was belonging. 

And I also realized, while I miss the people, I don’t necessarily miss the job. That is, given the chance to go back to my old position, I probably wouldn’t. I like the law. I like the extra layer of understanding I possess when I talk about policies impacting our state. 

I’m not sure where that leaves me, except with a strong reminder that I’m still becoming. No matter how stressful this past year, no matter how stressful the coming one, it is not the last chapter. I’ve got people rooting for me. People who trained me, mentored me, and pushed me forward. And right now a new batch of people train, mentor, and push me. But that doesn’t mean the last bunch forgot about me. They’re still my people. I’m just also getting more people. 

More than anything, the evening reminded me that I’m an extrovert and need to spend more time with people who fill me up. 

Which leads me to a major thank you to my introverted mother for sticking around much later than she wanted while I caught up with people. She also had to deal with my giddy rambling on the drive back. My Mom is the real MVP.