If Facebook memories and my blog posts from 2019 are to be believed, 4 years ago today I returned from my semester abroad in Thailand.
It feels so much more recent than that. And also so much longer ago.
Reading my post from 4 years ago, I can’t tell if I realized exactly how much I wanted to come home. It had been a…long 5 months. Long in ways that I’ve spent years processing. The isolation, the exhaustion, the constant uncertainty took a toll. I lived in a state of perpetual stress and uncertainty. And there is my post from that last day in the country, blathering on about Mary Poppins.
But I don’t think I could process much further than that. I could only cling to the hope that the next year would be better.
And the next year brought 2020.
Thank goodness for counseling.